it's only words

this calligraphy thing is capturing my attention still... 

I recently watched an interesting interview with the artist Yukimi Annand in which she suggested that while practicing the fundamental strokes of calligraphy: the up-curve and down-curve, ascending loop, and downward loop etc.  was essential, it was also important to practice creative use of letterforms at the same time

the thinking is if you practice the drills and gain mastery of the letters through that route alone you may well hinder your ability to do creative work with calligraphy and/or calligraphic marks later on

that makes a lot of sense to me as after decades of doing hand embroidery my stitches are always pretty well perfectly spaced and matched for size

 trying to do primitive style stitching is almost impossible for me and a long-held source of frustration

my daily practice for calligraphy already had me doing a mix of trials and drills as well as forays into more expressive work with letters but after watching the interview I am taking that dual aspect of learning much more seriously

the two images here are the latest examples of that...

the first began as a test of three pencil grades: HB, 2B and 4B

writing very small and using the same pressure for each example was an interesting way to see and experience their subtle differences

I then used one of the pencils and the same style of handwriting in a larger scale to "draw" a grassy hill and dip - the exaggeration of the upstrokes and downstrokes is such great fun and I hope over time those marks become more expressive and less about making a legible letter

the brush trials of that same week were to hold a fine brush (a size 1) perpendicular to the page and then make quick marks, curved and straight, barely letting the brush touch the page

"quick and light" ran through my head over and over

they were such fun!

keeping each somewhat tight, and lining them up the page of my sketchbook lent an air of Chinese calligraphy to the work that I was quite taken with, the motion becoming more and more comfortable with each one

muscle memory at work

as I was writing this a thought occurred to me - what if I held a word in my mind as I made each of these marks, and then recorded that word underneath? 

the result would be a unique representation of a word I held in my mind at a moment in time

an interesting thing with that is I could never duplicate it, the motion is simply too random and truthfully, I hope it stays that way as an ever-changing written language holds a strong appeal to me

a word is spoken in a certain time and place, and coupled with the characteristics of the inflection and volume used, add subtle layers of meaning, providing an individuality to the word that can hold even greater meaning than the standard definition

perhaps holding a word in my mind whilst making the marks in this way might allow for a written word to have those same influences and impacts?

there’s a lot in that idea I find incredibly intriguing

something else to ponder…

take care,

Jillayne 

and again, it's the hands that matter

one of the most worthwhile things I have learned over the past few years is that the best path to learning is to simply show up regularly and put in the time

its so simple yet surprisingly hard; in a world full of instant gratification the notion of working at something every single day seems not just daunting but downright unreasonable

and yet...

I have been spending 45 minutes every day doing pen, brush and drawing trials and whilst the desired outcome is to see an improvement in both my calligraphy and drawing skills I'm finding what has actually improved the most is my comfort with the materials

in drawing, holding the charcoal, choosing the paper, mixing the paint... all of these things are building my confidence and making me much more comfortable with the tools and materials

and from that comfort , the marks are being made with more surety and the outcomes are more interesting

I began the pen and brush trials at the end of August I think, the drawing one was added to the mix just over two weeks ago

below are the first two drawings, both done with a charcoal pencil

I found the pencil difficult to use (though that may have had more to do with the paper than the pencil) and so from Day 3 on I have only used compressed charcoal

I'm struggling to preserve any white space, the charcoal seems to get everywhere, not least because it first gets all over my fingers!

I had a stack of papers left over from other projects and have been using them for these trials - some times that works out alright but not always

(a more considered approach to choosing paper seems to be in order)

but what fun it has been to get so dirty, smudging a few clouds into existence with my fingers

charcoal is such a tactile material

the drawings are rather messy, the lines not always as crisp as I'd like them but every day I hold a piece of charcoal in my hand and bring something forth on the paper

no longer does the wish to draw or practice swooping, swirling letter forms live in my mind

the marks on the papers are tangible reminders that it's my hands that need to be at work, not my head

disengaged

there are times in the creative process where it is far more beneficial to just let go of the thinking mind and allow the hands alone to do the work

I try to remember that when coming to a feeling of being blocked, of not knowing what to do, when I spend more time thinking about what to do than actually doing anything

this wasn't so much one of those weeks more, it was a week when there wasn't much time available and I didn't want to get caught up in over-thinking things

and so, I looked to the meaning of the name I chose for my Substack newsletter:

 "Thinking With My Hands"

a way to give the thinking mind a rest and let my hands move as they will

or as a friend aptly put it:

"getting out of my own way"

the week kicked off with photographing some linen cloth I had randomly gathered here and there, rolled into a cylinder and let sit in a jar with a small amount of watered down ink, allowing the colour to seep up the height of the roll

I got a couple of good images and then decided to edit them with an end-game to print any interesting outcomes on both fine art paper using my inkjet printer and transfer film to print them onto handmade paper too fine to go through the printer 

without really thinking about what I was doing I just started zooming in on the image here and there, looking at what showed on the screen, and then taking screenshots that I could later edit 

I wasn't looking for anything in particular, not trying for a particular look, just moving the slider to see how things changed, saving anything that appealed

more screenshots and image duplicating, editing this way and that - it didn't take more than 5 or 6 minutes and I had many to sit back and choose from

it's so interesting how things can change so quickly, a nudge this way or that in almost any of the editing options and the image can change rather significantly

I enjoyed that freedom, to do without actually trying for anything, so I took the same thinking to my brush trials

still working on them daily along with pen trials using a calligraphy marker as well as a wide-nibbed fountain pen, enjoying the simplicity of moving a pen or brush across the paper, over and over again

I'm still doing simple lines and curves, approaching letter forms but not trying to rush into them, mostly just practicing a flowing "script"

pleasantly methodical is my best description of the repetitive nature of this work that fills page after page, day after day

I keep them for a day or two to reflect on but then they are consigned to the fire

 the working at it with my hands is more important than assessing the results with my brain and the best way to dodge that is to burn them so into the fire they go

no attachment, no thinking I need to keep them for reference, nor collage, nor anything at all

the work is a means to an end and if I start thinking I need to keep it for any reason whatsoever I will quickly become attached to both the process and the outcome

all I want or need to do is trust in the process and keep making the marks day after day

there will be time enough for the work to become something else

take care,

Jillayne