hush
january's ending and hush is the word
i may not have posted about it at all this month but it has been much on my mind
words have many meanings, "hush" is no different
"hush" commonly means to make someone quiet, calm, or still
or to put something to rest
i think perhaps i have put something to rest this month... through a lot of work, and a near equal amount of introspection, a healthy dose of faith and a belief in myself, i think i finally know what i want to be, what i want to do - i've known it for a long time but couldn't accept that it might be ok...
i'm pretty sure i was meant to be an artist
i'm supposed to make things - it's what i do and who i am
i'm slowly but surely cutting things from my life that don't fit with that, that get in the way of it, and establishing habits and processes that will feed it, nurture it and help me find my way
i've never been so happy in my whole life
it really started for me back in september when i met monica in the cotswolds and we spent a wonderful day together, much of it talking about art, creativity, leaps of faith, and trusting ourselves -
she inspired me so very much and those conversations have resounded in my head almost every day since
i finally got tired of wanting it and have started just doing it, making plans, big dreams, bigger ideas, moving in the right direction, taking those first steps, tentatively, walking fast now, getting ready to run
so here's january's heart...
a soft grey-blue and cream batik heart appliqued on to a raw silk background, fragments of old lace tacked on - it may look like one piece of lace, but it isn't... embroidery is next, adding another layer, all the colours soft and gentle
quiet, soft, gentle; taking small things, making a whole; joining them, healing them
new beginnings, new hearts
{one thing monica mentioned in her last post was she was going to start her blog posts with the pictures first and then the text following to make reading easier... i've been toying with that same idea for a bit and thought i would try it here - what do you think? }