Tuesday, September 18, 2012

opening lines

i've been reading a lot lately
good books, very good books

the kind that grab you right from the very first words, not the kind that go in one eye and out the other

this book was my big summer read

lent to me by my brother who heads up a cancer research team in san francisco

what a book

 sure, it's opening isn't as likely to be recited as

"i had a farm in africa, at the foot of the ngong hills..."
" it is a truth universally acknowledged, that a single man in possession of a good fortune must be in want of a wife"
nor even
"christmas won't be christmas without any presents!"

but it is one of the best books i have ever read

taking you from the earliest records and treatments, to the latest drug therapies, all through the terrible history of this disease, reciting the darkest days and illuminating the brightest achievements

it's a testament to both the tenacity of the disease, and those who try to understand and treat it

i don't think i have ever been more humbled 

nor wished more to do something of use and value

in these days after bozzy's passing, life and living and death and dying have been a big part of my thoughts

more and more i'm thinking about my own story
and what i want it to be

in amongst all the "i wish i did"s and "i really should"s i know that at the end of the day,
the best story is the simplest one

"once upon a time, in the far north when the days were getting longer and the world began to wake up after it's long winter's sleep, a little girl was born

and she lived happily ever after."



Suztats said...

I imagine there's a lot that goes in there between being born and living happily ever after.
I remember from my Uncle's funeral several years ago, there was a handout about making the most of one's dash.......the dash being between the year of birth and the year of death.
As I get older, I, too, think of what I have done with my dash. There are no world-shaking discoveries, no fame or fortune, but I am happy with how I have spent those years, for that has made me who I am today, with all my short-comings and faults.
I do not have a bucket list of things to do and see before I die, because I have filled my dash with activities that feed my soul.
As you wrote, "the best story is the simplest one."

Marj Talbot said...

In my dash I have been married 48 years today while feeling not much older than that. I like the phrase above - I have filled my dash with activities that feed my soul. We have so many things to be thankful for.
Love and Hugs

Mosaic Magpie said...

I have had a visit with the Emperor and that visit leaves you thinking about your life. Have I been as kind to others as I should have been....did I share a smile. What had I done to touch others in a positive way. How would I be remembered. Living happily ever after....I wonder if that is possible? The ups and downs...hopefully there are more ups than downs.
To face each day with a good attitude and fall asleep each night knowing we did our best....and to one day hear, "Well done, my good and faithful servant." That would be living happily ever after.

Createology said...

Now that I have read your post dear and also read the comments I am in goosebump chills. I too have been reflecting on life and how quickly it is passing. Mr. C showed me a tape measure and if he lived to be 80 his time left is very short compared to his time already lived. I hated that he showed me that. I just met him at 40 and want lots more time with him. In my blog reading I came across Tammy in Kuwait and her post of a video "Before I Die". I have been obsessing over what I could think of to do or say. Mr. C has a bucket list but I do not. I am more of a simple girl who merely wants to live a simple but happy life. I do for others as much as possible and that feeds my soul. I do not lack for anything. I am happy. Now all I wish for is health. I do not want to meet the Emperor as so many of our friends are having to do. Blessings to you my friend. I think I shall read this book if I can find it at the local library. Hugs to you and Suz and Deb... Please excuse my ramblings.

Susan Elliott said...

Hmmm...there are so many powerful stories in between the beginning and the end that have shaped who you are. That being said, it's a profound statement to say "the best story is the simplest one"...

I came, I loved, I left no damage in my wake...

Susan Elliott said...

P.S. Thanks for the book rec. I'm looking for it at my library too...xo Susan

Bill Shander said...

Me too...I've been thinking deeply about life and what comes after this one. And I've been moving towards the things that matter most to me. It sounds like you've found some peace through reading this book...I'm glad.

Dorthe said...

Dear Gillayne,
I could be that little girl from the North,too :-) only I was born in June :-)
Im our house we also are now and thinking about the time left is far less than the time already spend- but I try hard- to remember to be happy for every day, thanking the Lord for every morning and evening-
not falling in the hole, of what do I want to do with the rest of my life, as really I do believe -LIKE YOU- that the simplest story is the best-and I LOVE my simple story as it is.
Hugs and blessings.

Createology said...

I picked up this book at the local library. It will be a slow read for me. The very first two paragraphs had me in tears. I am certain I shall need to check it out again. Thank you Jillayne for sharing about this book. Your brother must be an angel for doing cancer research...

Alisa Noble said...

So often you and I seem to be on the same wave length, Jillyane.
Universal conscious?
I've been thinking long and hard recently on how I can take the lessons I've learned in my life experiences and giveback.