a few posts ago i told you of my plan for little hearts holding captured words and thoughts...
almost immediately after writing that post i became somewhat discouraged... what i was doing was not what i had originally intended at all, and it made me kind of sad, as if i'd lost my way
the plan was for them to be light and airy and delicate - fragile in a way, the way broken and mended hearts often are
they would have scraps of lace and words trapped between layers of sheer silky softness
but that was not the direction i seemed to be going - not at all
somehow i'd wandered off on another path
velvet is not light and delicate and making lace to slip words behind was not the point at all -
i found i was concentrating more on the holes and whether or not they were large enough to see anything behind them - if there were enough, or if it was all too dense - the more i tried to figure it out the worse i felt
leaving it all in a heap, i went out to the garden to putter about
it was the end of the day and the sideways slanting sun lit up the plants with a beautiful green-gold light; leaves and stems burnished gently with a golden glow
it was a transparent kind of light, one where you could easily see the delicate webbing of tiny leaves
i frowned and then i smiled and the next morning i gathered some bits and pieces and in a corner of the same silk gauze i fashioned a little bit of joy...
outlining the heart shape, adding scraps of tissue and lace, a scrap of paper with a simple word
safe and sound
i wondered how it would look if i placed it on the velvet hearts
pretty enough - better than the other idea, but although this was an improvement for the velvet heart, the velvet was not an improvement for it
perhaps that's a different project for another day - for now though, the little word hearts are being made in the manner originally intended
a word, a feeling, a memory, a thought...
caught in layers of beautiful delicate cloth; held up to the light, they are at once beautiful and ragged, the way the very best hearts always are
and what was once lost was found again