quilter's often gift quilts to family and friends,
usually to mark some occasion or another
but sometimes the quilt gives the maker a gift...
a few weeks ago I finally had an extra day off so I did what most of us do on days like that ...
errands and appointments
mine was a doctor's appointment with a planned stop after at a local fabric shop to pick up some upholstery fabric
a day that started as a normal day and mid-way through, took a sharp right turn when my doctor found a lump during my routine exam
and so began a whirlwind of appointments for mammograms and ultrasounds in a distant city
of course, none could be right away so there would be time to think
time to wonder and time to worry
I'm not one to borrow trouble and so I tried very hard to only think good thoughts...
because most lumps are harmless cysts -
except I know that isn't always how the story goes,
and I know that some of you didn't get the "sigh of relief" results that make you realize you have been holding your breath for two weeks...
and I hoped for that story so much I could barely think about it
and thankfully that is what I got...
after a very thorough going over, I was told I had four harmless cysts
so lucky, and so very grateful!
these quilt blocks my story is intertwined with are part of a Christmas wallhanging I am working on
after the doctor's appointment was over, that first day, I stopped for the fabric anyway - it was the last day of the sale and because the chair I am recovering belongs to someone else, I had to get it...
all the while reeling inside...
while standing at the checkout, I saw this quilt pattern and picked it up to look closer
I remember quite clearly thinking it would stupid to buy it - not only do I have 97 unfinished projects waiting at home, but also a great stack of books, patterns and fabrics waiting for their day in the sun...
the last thing I should be thinking about now is buying more, especially when I might...
I bought the pattern, picked out the fabrics that afternoon, and began
every night I worked on it - it was something new, and I wasn't getting all silly about having to finish things, I was doing what I always do, stitching and thinking,
"should I sell it in this year's sale, or keep it for myself?"
"it's so much work and will be too big for the sale - maybe I should make runners out the present blocks and a wall-hanging out of the rest?"
the kind of questions that run through my head with everything I make
this quilt gave me the gift of feeling normal when my world seemed upside down
it helped me focus on good thoughts and not dwell on bad ones
it gave me something to focus on when my mind threatened to wander
and with each of the twelve present blocks I thought of all the great gifts of life